My husband of 10 years is totally obsessed with sex, although he can’t get an erection and hasn’t for years. I’m 61; he’s 72. I stopped having any interest in sex about 9 years ago when it became too painful. He can’t seem to accept that we’re old and our sex organs just don’t work anymore.
I have vaginal atrophy and several disabling health conditions. I don’t want to have sex because it hurts, despite estrogen cream. Sex aggravates my arthritis as well, and I don’t enjoy being touched because of fibromyalgia. My husband has his own severe medical issues.
We were together only 9 months before we married. The pain and disinterest came gradually, but fairly quickly, along with his demands for sex despite his ED. He uses Viagra and a pump. The attempted sex became exhausting and unsatisfying because of his fruitless, lengthy efforts that caused more pain.
We’ve tried non-intercourse sex, but he isn’t satisfied for long before he wants penetration. He promised me once that we could do alternatives, but soon went back on his word. He doesn’t seem to care that sex hurts me.
I find oral sex disgusting now, too. Really, any sex is repulsive to me. I feel like he’s worn me out and cares only about trying for a climax. I resent that he is a slave to his own obsession with sex, and I’ve told him this.
He sexts women online on trashy websites and watches porn daily. I don’t care about the porn, but messaging women is just too much. He won’t stop, even though he promised me many times he would.
I’ve asked him to find someone else to have sex with so I don’t have to, but he won’t. He says he doesn’t think anyone will want him. So I have to suffer through it or he gets a really nasty attitude. He angers easily, barks at me, finds fault, and blames me. He has even accused me of fabricating my health issues so I would have a reason not to have sex.
We are both disabled and living on a shoestring. If we divorce, we’ll both be in extreme poverty — we barely manage as it is. I get only a little more than half on disability than I did when I was working. I don’t see leaving as an option.
How do I get him to accept that sex doesn’t work for either of us anymore, and he should give it up and stop causing me physical pain? I hate having to endure his attempts at sex because he can’t see that he’s hanging on to a fantasy.
This is an unhealthy marriage for both of you. The biggest problem is not that your husband still wants a sex life despite ED or that he messages women to indulge in sexual fantasies, however. The problem is that he bullies you into aggressive, unwanted sex that is all pain and no pleasure for you. The problem is that he will not accept that the sexual connection between you is over.
No, you should not have to endure sex you don’t want and that causes you pain. No part of you physically or emotionally wants it. The sex you describe, and in fact the whole relationship, is hostile and forceful, devoid of caring. You’re right to shut it down.
I fear it’s too late to repair this marriage. Whatever you felt for each other in the beginning is gone. You acknowledge that you married too quickly — after only 9 months of knowing each other! — and from what you say, there’s no trace left of what drew you together.
You need to get out.
You say you can’t leave because of finances and disability. Please reach out to your grown children and to social services in your area. There must be a service or program that can help you find and finance another living situation. From the way you describe your relationship and your opinions of each other, you will never be happy staying together, and neither will he. Life is too short to stay in a toxic marriage.
I want to challenge your assumption, though, that your husband has aged out of sexual expression. A firm erection is not a requirement for satisfying sex. An enthusiastic partner with oral skills and/or a high-quality vibrator that works beautifully on recalcitrant penises, such as the Hot Octopuss Pulse and the Fun Factory Volta, could make all the difference for him. Since you’re done with him as a sex partner — and I support your decision — you really don’t have the right to police other ways he expresses his sexual need. Whether he’s watching porn or sexting with strangers, it’s really not your business. He doesn’t need to give up on his natural desire for sex — but he does need to give up imposing himself “non-consensually” on you!
I know you’re in a difficult situation, and it’s only getting worse with time. Please find a way to leave. I care about you!
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